[Malvern]
Friday.
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4 oclock. There is no material change, but she appears much
prostrated.— I will send another line before Post closes, if I see
Dr Gully—
12. oclock. I have left a space above for last account.— Dr Gully slept here last night
& is most kind.— After I wrote her pulse ceased to intermit &
that encouraged Dr Gully a little: before
that, when I wrote he did not think she wd
last out the night.— To day, he says she is no worse, & at present
(12) this is the best which can be said. She does not suffer thank God.— It is
much bitterer & harder to bear than I expected— Your note made me cry
much—but I must not give way & can avoid doing so, by not thinking
about her. It is now from hour to hour a struggle between life & death. God only
knows the issue. She has been very quiet all morning, but vomited badly at
6 A.M. which, however bad, shows she has more vital force than
during two previous days. Sometimes Dr. G. exclaims she will get
through the struggle; then, I see, he doubts.— Oh my own it is very bitter
indeed.— God preserve & cherish you.— Her one good point is
her pulse, now regular & not very weak, excepting for this there would be no
hope. We give her spoonfuls of gruel with brandy every half hour.—
1 oclock. The Dr repeats what he
said, “she is not worse”:—3 oclock,—
she keeps the same, quite easy, but I grieve to say she has vomited a large quantity of
bright green fluid.— Her case seems to me an exaggerated one of my Maer
illness.— We must hope against hope.
My own poor dear unhappy wife | C. D.
